It’s that time of year again and for a change I’m not fixate on the number. I remember many years ago being in Serbia with my older cousin, and she turned 28. We had gone through to her friend’s house and they sat their reading each other’s coffee (it’s a Serbian/Gypsy thing), her friend had mentioned to her that 30 was only 2 years away and she burst into tears. I sat there so confused and started laughing at her while she kept repeating that she felt like her life was over, that she was old, she wasn’t where she wanted to be career-wise and that no one would want her. She is now 40 years old, married, with two beautiful boys and is happy. At that point, I honestly didn’t understand her cry. I didn’t understand why she was so scared. I told her she was crazy.
Then last year happened and I had an “ah-ha” moment. Just before my 27th birthday, I went into a “mild” panic. I was asking myself a million and one questions, I even remember sitting in my car, on the way home, having a proper cry because I felt like I wasn’t ready. I wasn’t ready to be 27, I didn’t act 27, and how was it even possible that I was 27. I finally understood my cousin’s breakdown. Every goal that I had set for myself since I was 16, hadn’t really worked out. So what was I actually celebrating at 27? What had I actually accomplished? I hadn’t bought a house, I wasn’t married, I didn’t have the daughter I want and I wasn’t in my dream career. I managed to pull myself toward myself and I took a few deep breaths. Life has a funny way of working itself out and everything happens for a reason. I just needed to go with the flow and enjoy the here and now. And so that’s exactly what I’ve been doing. My only true goal in life is to be happy and I can sit here today, while I type this and say that I am. I may not be living my best life and rolling in dosh but I’m living my life to the best of my abilities right now and I am rather happy with that.
By changing my mindset, in just a year, I (along with S) managed to accomplish more than I realized. In a year, I figured out my true passion and I’m perusing it. I celebrated 10 years with my amazing man, and can cheers to my happy and healthy relationship. We have bought our first home, and I can’t wait to make it feel completely like it’s ours (the renovations have already started brewing in my head lol). I figured out the true meaning of life and that’s to love all beings – to live a life as far from suffering as possible – it’s been freeing! I feel as if, my life is just getting started and I can’t wait to see what’s to come. So it just goes to show by just changing the way you think, in a year you could be in a completely different space – spiritually, mentally, physically and financially – you just have to believe in yourself. Age is seriously just a number, it shouldn’t scare us or control us.
Here are 2 things to always remember, and I’m pretty sure I’ve mentioned them in past posts:
1. Thunderstorms and Rainbows
Things aren’t always going to work out, but don’t let that get you down. I always believe that everything happens for a reason. You need to keep pushing yourself to overcome your hurdles and once you have reached the top, you’ll realize just how worth it, it all was. Challenges in life help you grow and develop into the person you are supposed to be. Don’t see them as a setback, grab the bull by the horns and show it who’s its mama! As we all know, after every thunderstorm, a beautiful rainbow appears.
As the old saying goes “life is too short”. We too often take it for granted. The key to living a happy life is forgetting about the “what ifs” and finding your inner happiness. No amount of money, will make you happy. No other person will make you happy. Your happiness is your own responsibility. Most importantly stop comparing yourself and your life to others. Focus on yours and yours only. Don’t waste your time being at war with yourself, don’t waste your time doing things that don’t set your soul on fire. Be weird. Be brave. Be spontaneous. Be freaky. Be whatever you want to be! Use your time wisely because before you know it
And so, I welcome my 28th year with open arms. I can’t wait to see what the future has to bring! Happy Birthday to me!
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