As some of you will know, I have been on this journey of self discovery. I can’t say that it has been an extremely exciting and wonderful journey but I know that it’s one that will be worth it in the end. I have started using my blog as a platform to get everything out because as much as we all feel like we are alone in our journeys and that nobody else could possibly understand what we are going through, it couldn’t be further from the truth. I am hoping that my posts will help people feel like they are not alone and that it is okay to feel the way you feeling. Everything is easier said than done, i know, but hopefully I will help you. Even in the slightest way.
I have spent so many sleepless nights trying to figure things out. Re-living moments in the past. Thinking what if I had gone down the other road? What if I had handled that situation differently? I then realized that I’m never going to move forward with my journey if I keep trying to re-live what has already happened. No matter how many times I re-live those moments, there is nothing I can do to change them. The decisions I made then are the decisions that felt right at that point in time. I am here now, my situation is what it is and once I start accepting it, the easier it will be to live for today. To appreciate what today has to offer. To live in the moment and just enjoy it.
“One day at a time- this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.” – Ida Scott Taylor.
Don’t lose sight of what you deserve. No matter your situation or past, everyone deserves happiness and love. A lot of us feel misunderstood and a lot of the time it’s not because we don’t trust to open up to others, that we don’t know how we truly feel, it’s simply because we can’t fully explain it. However, keeping it all bottled up inside doesn’t help much. I have always been a fairly closed off person, letting people know how I truly felt made me feel vulnerable and I felt like I would be judged. The best thing I did was found myself someone that I could totally be me with. That no matter what, this person will never judge my thoughts or decisions in life. I slowly let them in and I’ve never felt better. If I could recommend anything, it’s that you learn to talk about what’s going on. Talking to someone that truly cares for you is the greatest therapy. Even if you can’t fully explain it all, the point is trying.
We are all slightly broken inside. There is always something in our pasts that has dented us and that’s okay, because that’s what makes us unique. I lost myself in something I love but at the same time I managed to find myself in it too. Many mornings I have woken up feeling a little empty, a little clueless and lost but I have taught myself to get up and take it as it comes. You can’t predict the future, so stop trying.
One thing I wish I had predicted and come across sooner is a store called Refinery. It’s become my new obsession. I went a little crazy in the store, I did my best to contain myself and not make myself totally broke. The clothing is affordable, good quality and trendy. This dress shirt has quickly become a favorite. It’s so simple yet makes a statement. You can dress it up or down and it works perfectly for winter and summer. #WINNING.
Shirt Dress – Refinery
Stockings – Cotton On
Boots – Soviet
Handbag – Aldo
Accessories – Lovisa
Photo Cred: Jovana Mandic
Remember that you are not alone. You are beautiful, you are deserving and you will be okay. You are stronger and braver than you think.
“Broken crayons still color.”
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